Very In-Depth Mentor Meeting

Long, spontaneous, life chats are the best, aren't they? At least that's what all the upcoming college freshman are saying when they're looking for a room mate..and I TOTALLY agree with them.

Ms. Z and I had a really thorough hour-long discussion on Friday having to do with motivation. 

Just picture it--you're a senior in high school. You've worked pretty hard for all your four years of high school and would really just like to have a relaxing spring for once. This year, you decided to take it a little easy (easy meaning not having every period filled up with a class) and are getting de-energized with all these extracurriculars and just senioritis in general. How do you find the motivation to keep going with a project as long and big as this one??

That is what I've been struggling with. A lot. And that's what I talked to Ms. Z about on Friday. 

There are a couple of reasons why this might be the case. 

Here are my theories:

1. The masochist defense.

"What the heck is this??" you might ask (be prepared not to be led straight to the point...).

In this program called Hidden Treasure that my mom helps teach (read more about it here: ( http://www.lightonthehill.org/hidden-treasure/introduction/ ), the teachers talk about five main defenses of which each person might have. Some may have a bit of all of them, some may have two very strong ones, it's varied. 

-The Oral Defense stems from not having enough of your needs met as a child, so as an adult, you end up seeking something to fill an empty void inside of you (and as the name suggest, you might be very talkative about it).

-The Rigid Defense is basically what it sounds like. You are generally unflexible when it comes to schedule changes and spontaneous events. Things need to be the way they were planned, or else it causes some measure of anxiety within you. 

-The psychopathic defense is when you want to be in the control of your environment, as well as the people/thoughts of those people around you. This is a very common defense. 

-The schizoid defense describes someone who tends to zone out and consume themselves in their own internal world when conflict arises. They don't want to deal with it-so they avoid it. 

-And lastly, the masochist defense usually stems from having very controlling parents as a child, so you are prone to say "no" to authority and those types of demands. However, this also means that you say "no" to things that would benefit you, setting yourself up to fail. 

I don't have very controlling parents, but I want to say "no" to work, which this project has become more of than pleasure. 

So that's one reason. 

Another is a deep-seeded questions I've been pondering since my junior year. Why do  we have to work? Why do we have to do all of this work? For college? To succeed? Why is success so important anyway? Isn't better to just be happy, relaxed, have a well-balanced life?

Because of these reasons, Ms. Z and I decided that I need some external motivators to help me get up and start my work. To do this, I have created a Pintrist account. If you know how pintrist works (which I still don't for the most part...), you follow certain boards that draw your interest, say, braid styles for example. Then, pictures pop up on your newsfeed and you can pin them to your own board, or like them, or whatever you wanna do. 

I am following several earthship design boards and I get a lot of cool pictures of the insides and outsides of custom earthships, which are beautiful to look at. 

This, I believe, will get me up and on the road to doing more WISE work. 

We'll see if this works!!