My earthship presentation is being set in motion!
I had a meeting after church yesterday with Ms. Zaryski and Arlene and we figured out that if we were to present anything together, it will have to be next week, June 7th. This will be very tough for me since it's the day after senior prom...but it will have to do!
We also figured out that our combined Ecovillage/earthship presentation would be directed toward Jeff Shepardson's sustainable living small group at our church (and any other church members who want to attend).
The presentation will last about 30 minutes, 15 minutes of Arlene speaking and 15 minutes of me speaking. This will be GREAT practice for my upcoming WISE presentation.
Sunday, May 31, 2015
Saturday, May 30, 2015
Interview with Don McKechnie!
Today, I got to go over to Don McKechnie's house, who my family and I have known for quite some time, and talk to him about his recent solar panel installation! The interview lasted about 20 minutes, and afterwards he showed me how he does the readings, the inverter, the panels themselves, and all that jazz (which I'll explain in a sec).
The solar panels were installed the last weekend in February. Remember when Ithaca got SUPER SUPER cold? Well that was the end of February, and the construction workers from Renovus (the local solar panel company from which they bought their panels) came and cleared off the roof and installed the panels. Pretty incredible eh? However, while the panels were installed in February, the electricity wasn't installed until early April, so they've had working panels since April 6th, 2015.
Jacqueline and Don decided to get solar panels in July when the Solar Tompkins Initiative offered a "deal" of sorts. Their house wasn't actually inspected until October to see if they were eligible to have solar panels.
One main reason they decided to get solar panels was because of financial reasons. While the total cost for installing solar panels was somewhere around $28, 000, they got a lot of money back. Firstly, since more than 300 people signed up as part of the Solar Tompkins Initiative to have solar panels installed, they got $2600 back from Solar Tompkins. Also, MYSERTA gave them a grant of $7,000 right off the bat just for installing solar panels. They also receive $4,000 in state tax rebates and $5,000 in federal tax rebates. This means their total bill was about $10,000.
If these panels are actually saving them money, we don't know yet. They haven't had them long enough to calculate their total savings.
Jacqueline and Don also wanted to be more energy efficient. While they have been doing small things around the house to conserve energy, like replace the windows, doors, insulation, and eliminate the dampness in their basement, this was a bigger step they felt like they had to take.
How the panels work:
Don and Jacqueline have an account online where they can see how much their panels produce (pictures 1 and 2). The energy that's produced by the panels gets shuttled to the inverter in their garage (picture 3). The first number that comes up on the reader is how many watts are being produced and being directed into the inverter to be used at that moment (picture 4). The second number that pops up is how many watts are being pushed back into NYSEG's electrical system (picture 5). The more energy is pushed back into NYSEG's system, the more credits they receive from NYSEG, which allows them to use energy for less money when there are cloudy days, rainy days, or wintery days.
Picture 6 shows what the panels look like on top of their house!
It was a real treat to interview Don, especially since I don't get to talk to him as much as Jacqueline.
I'm hoping to interview Carrie tomorrow! We finally found a time that works for both of us.
The solar panels were installed the last weekend in February. Remember when Ithaca got SUPER SUPER cold? Well that was the end of February, and the construction workers from Renovus (the local solar panel company from which they bought their panels) came and cleared off the roof and installed the panels. Pretty incredible eh? However, while the panels were installed in February, the electricity wasn't installed until early April, so they've had working panels since April 6th, 2015.
Jacqueline and Don decided to get solar panels in July when the Solar Tompkins Initiative offered a "deal" of sorts. Their house wasn't actually inspected until October to see if they were eligible to have solar panels.
One main reason they decided to get solar panels was because of financial reasons. While the total cost for installing solar panels was somewhere around $28, 000, they got a lot of money back. Firstly, since more than 300 people signed up as part of the Solar Tompkins Initiative to have solar panels installed, they got $2600 back from Solar Tompkins. Also, MYSERTA gave them a grant of $7,000 right off the bat just for installing solar panels. They also receive $4,000 in state tax rebates and $5,000 in federal tax rebates. This means their total bill was about $10,000.
If these panels are actually saving them money, we don't know yet. They haven't had them long enough to calculate their total savings.
Jacqueline and Don also wanted to be more energy efficient. While they have been doing small things around the house to conserve energy, like replace the windows, doors, insulation, and eliminate the dampness in their basement, this was a bigger step they felt like they had to take.
How the panels work:
Don and Jacqueline have an account online where they can see how much their panels produce (pictures 1 and 2). The energy that's produced by the panels gets shuttled to the inverter in their garage (picture 3). The first number that comes up on the reader is how many watts are being produced and being directed into the inverter to be used at that moment (picture 4). The second number that pops up is how many watts are being pushed back into NYSEG's electrical system (picture 5). The more energy is pushed back into NYSEG's system, the more credits they receive from NYSEG, which allows them to use energy for less money when there are cloudy days, rainy days, or wintery days.
Picture 6 shows what the panels look like on top of their house!
It was a real treat to interview Don, especially since I don't get to talk to him as much as Jacqueline.
I'm hoping to interview Carrie tomorrow! We finally found a time that works for both of us.
Sunday, May 24, 2015
WISE Presentation Planning
We got a sheet in class a couple weeks talking about the preparation for our presentation. It talks about what materials we need to turn in, how they need to be distributed, and how they all overlap each other. We have three methods of documentation: the journal, the narrative, and the presentation. Examine the diagram below:
So in my actual presentation, I think it will be best to talk primarily about my hands on experiences. I haven't shown that too much in my journal, and in my narrative I'm going to reflect on my reflections in my journal, most likely.
Friday, May 22, 2015
Mentor Meeting 5/22
Some awesome brainstorming transpired during our meeting! We talked about presentation ideas and what all I can do in the next few days. Here are a couple brief lists of what we talked about.
Presentation ideas:
-New location for WISE presentation. Outside? Space mimicking an earthship?
-Start off with hook for both (we came up with a cool one, but I'm not going to share it on here for the sake of surprise :) )
Things to do:
-Make a list of directions I can go in for earthship presentation.
-After I do above task, come up with new title for project
-Find Joe Fischer on Facebook and message him, since I have no other way of contacting him.
-Contact Jeff Shepardson
-Contact Dick Tenny
Thursday, May 21, 2015
How to be Perfect
Last week, Ms. Lord gave us an excerpt from "How to be Perfect", but Ron Padgett.
I found this poem intriguing. While all of the advice on here is valid, and would probably benefit anyone who reads, I feel an urge to follow none of it.
For example, the poem starts out like this:
"Get some sleep.
Eat and orange every morning.
Be friendly. it will help make you happy.
Hope for everything. Expect nothing..."
Pretty "ordinary" advice.
Then, as the poem continues, some more questionable pieces of advice are given.
For example,
"Imagine what you would like to see happen, and then don't do anything to make it impossible"
What I think is happening in the poem is that the obvious idea actions are places at the beginning of the poem. As the poem goes on, "perfect" takes on a new definition. In the previous line, "perfect" is being in the ideal emotional state of not feeling obligated to do anything.
The above quote especially relates to my project. I talked about the masochist defense in one of my previous entries. Refresher: the masochist defense is all about wanting to say "no" to authority figures, even if that means putting your own well-being in danger. It is also associated with "wanting" yourself to fail deep down, to put it bluntly. This one line emulates this perfectly!
In a way, you're so afraid of failing at making what you want happen, that you fail yourself in another way by doing nothing at all.
This is what I've been feeling.
I worry that I'm not going to get the answer I want when emailing someone or not finding the information I want when researching, so sometimes I do nothing, and it causes me an even greater failure.
Any who, so that's obviously not the whole poem, but I just wanted to share how I was able to connect with part of it.
I found this poem intriguing. While all of the advice on here is valid, and would probably benefit anyone who reads, I feel an urge to follow none of it.
For example, the poem starts out like this:
"Get some sleep.
Eat and orange every morning.
Be friendly. it will help make you happy.
Hope for everything. Expect nothing..."
Pretty "ordinary" advice.
Then, as the poem continues, some more questionable pieces of advice are given.
For example,
"Imagine what you would like to see happen, and then don't do anything to make it impossible"
What I think is happening in the poem is that the obvious idea actions are places at the beginning of the poem. As the poem goes on, "perfect" takes on a new definition. In the previous line, "perfect" is being in the ideal emotional state of not feeling obligated to do anything.
The above quote especially relates to my project. I talked about the masochist defense in one of my previous entries. Refresher: the masochist defense is all about wanting to say "no" to authority figures, even if that means putting your own well-being in danger. It is also associated with "wanting" yourself to fail deep down, to put it bluntly. This one line emulates this perfectly!
In a way, you're so afraid of failing at making what you want happen, that you fail yourself in another way by doing nothing at all.
This is what I've been feeling.
I worry that I'm not going to get the answer I want when emailing someone or not finding the information I want when researching, so sometimes I do nothing, and it causes me an even greater failure.
Any who, so that's obviously not the whole poem, but I just wanted to share how I was able to connect with part of it.
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Plan for the rest of the week (5/20-5/27)
So Carrie and I are hoping to meet on Friday (still waiting to confirm) potentially at her tiny house!! I haven't heard back from Jacqueline yet, so I'll email another person in my contact list.
Here is my plan for the rest of the week
-Interview Carrie
-Read the poem we got in class ("How to be Perfect" by Ron Padgett) and reflect on it
-Explore more parts of the Earthship Biotecture website and write a research entry
-Contact another person on my contacts list if Jacqueline doesn't respond by this evening-
-Start to envision my presentation. Think about the best way to break it up (3x 10 minutes or 6x5 minutes).
-Contact Arlene about possibly putting together a joint presentation about Ecovillage and Earthships
Here is my plan for the rest of the week
-Interview Carrie
-Read the poem we got in class ("How to be Perfect" by Ron Padgett) and reflect on it
-Explore more parts of the Earthship Biotecture website and write a research entry
-Contact another person on my contacts list if Jacqueline doesn't respond by this evening-
-Start to envision my presentation. Think about the best way to break it up (3x 10 minutes or 6x5 minutes).
-Contact Arlene about possibly putting together a joint presentation about Ecovillage and Earthships
Sunday, May 17, 2015
Personal Contacts
I am putting a list together of all of the potential people I can contact about their personal experience with living sustainably. I'm leaving out emails and addresses for the sake of privacy. Here is what I have so far:
-Carrie Koplinka-Loehr-tiny house
-Carrie Koplinka-Loehr-tiny house
-Jacqueline Bonner-solar panels
-Dick Tenney-geothermal
-Jeff Sheperdson
-Joe Fischer
-Guy on South hill back road. 405,000 LEED Silver certified house
-Can talk to the town is Ithaca about sustainability goals
-Sustainably Conscious Living at IC.
-Gatehouse cottages
I contacted both Jaqueline and Carrie and am awaiting for their responses!
I contacted both Jaqueline and Carrie and am awaiting for their responses!
Saturday, May 16, 2015
Goin' 'Round in Circles, But Not Anymore!
So believe it or not, I am choosing yet a DIFFERENT direction to take me project in.
I have been pretty confused for about two weeks now about what to do with all of the information I've accumulated about earthships (and other types of green housing).
I talked to Ms. Lord on Friday and she suggested that I give a separate presentation to a group of people (I'm thinking my church congregation) about earthships! I'm also thinking I can partner with Arlene Hewitt (she gave me a tour of Ecovillage) and we can do a joint informative presentation about earthhships and Ecovillage. Food of course will be included.
So that's where I'm headed at the moment. I'm also still planning to reach out into the community and contact individuals and organizations about their sustainability efforts.
I have been pretty confused for about two weeks now about what to do with all of the information I've accumulated about earthships (and other types of green housing).
I talked to Ms. Lord on Friday and she suggested that I give a separate presentation to a group of people (I'm thinking my church congregation) about earthships! I'm also thinking I can partner with Arlene Hewitt (she gave me a tour of Ecovillage) and we can do a joint informative presentation about earthhships and Ecovillage. Food of course will be included.
So that's where I'm headed at the moment. I'm also still planning to reach out into the community and contact individuals and organizations about their sustainability efforts.
Wednesday, May 13, 2015
Blog Reflection
Sorry I didn't end up having 33 on Monday. I realized over the weekend that this was a very unrealistic goal. I was, in fact, in a place with no wifi over the weekend and got home late Sunday night. This, I'm deciding, is a valid reason for not making up my journal entries. However, they still aren't done and they need to be soon so I am really aiming to get caught up and get back on board. I sincerely will do my best to get back on track.
Can the reader see your 8 hrs/week?
-The reader cannot see my 8hrs/week. I am not good at blogging about my progress. I feel like I have regressed from a month ago. I like my entries to be detailed and it takes me long time to write each one, usually. But, as I said before, I don't write about my hands-on work that much (because it has been very minimal due to the structure of my project).
What do you document well?
I think I document my thoughts well and am articulate in my reflections. I am most comfortable.
In what areas do you need improvement in communication in your journal?
Once again, hands on work needs more attention. Since I am changing the direction of my project (which might not be viable now. I need to talk to Ms. Lord and my mentor about it), my physical, creation of a product is being halted. However, I am going to focus on public outreach quite a bit and interview people about how they've lived sustainably. So that will improve.
Tuesday, May 12, 2015
Garbage Warrior
I FINALLY finished Garbage Warrior *thunderous applause*!!!!!!
I took a LOT of notes for this. 3 pages worth, actually, on google docs. Single spaced. Probably didn't need to have done that much..but I wanted to remember all of the details from the movie. So the extra time spend watching it was worth it.
Here's the basic synopsis of the documentary:
Michael Reynolds started designing earthships so they could enhance the quality of life, but since our environment is quickly dissipating, he now designs them with our future survival in mind. After building a few earthships, he went on to build the first earthship community in Taos county, New Mexico, called Reach community. These houses, however, were very experimental. Reynolds and his building crew pointed this out to their earthship clients, but many of the clients sued Reynolds because of things that went wrong in their houses. Since Reach was not a subdivision and the houses were built so radically (meaning they didn't follow the state standards), Reach community was eventually shut down and Reynolds' state architect license was taken away.
It took Reynolds 7 years to make Reach a subdivision, and he had to spend tens of thousands of dollars to do so. **Warning: Subjective opinion**. I personally the building standards in New Mexico and the United States are a load of crap. I know it's blunt, but how are we possibly going to move forward and create a world for our future great grandchildren if we get sued every time we try to build outside the box?? Reynolds pointed this same thing out during the movie, and I was getting really angry at the lawmakers and the "rule book" of housing. Just ridiculous.
ANY way..so Reach community was opened back up, and Reynolds realized that in order to fight the system, he had to become a part of the system. He went on to create a bill allowing certain areas to be designated for sustainable housing testing sites. After a lot of work, the bill wasn't passed due to filibustering during the legislative session.
In April 2005, Reynolds and his crew received an SOS call from the tsunami hit Andaman islands. Reynolds and his crew went on to build and earthship there to help the remaining islanders. As Reynolds pointed out, they were all open to it because a disaster hit, so any solution sounded plausible. This eventually contributed to Reynolds' attempt to pass his bill a second time in the winter of 2006, though it still failed.
Eventually, in March 2007, the bill passed and he was able to legally build experimental earthships.
Also, after learning of his work in the Andaman islands, the Architect Board in Taos, New Mexico offered his state architect's license back.
What a story. Reynolds presented a lot of valid, big picture points about our life here on earth and how our government runs. He is very opinionated and likes to swear a lot...but very persuasive and not afraid to look at the big environmental problems, unlike most of the government(s).
Here are some of my favorite points made in the movie:
-Reynolds compares current human way of living as a bunch of buffalo running towards cliff with 1,000 foot drop-off, and he’s in it.
-Take every aspect of own lives and put it into your own hands. Don’t need to go to store to get what you need.
-”I am free”--The government tests cars, tests airplanes, tests BOMBS for pete’s sake in the interest of national security. So why can’t we have a few hundred acres for test sites to test sustainable living? Something that will, in fact, BENEFIT everyone.
--”We have decades left on this planet, and American politics is a f***ing dinosaur that’s not going to make it”-MR
-”Almost like disaster has to happen in order to make the rest of the world start comparing”-MR
-”We got a lot of people who can’t see beyond the rule book, and beyond the rule book is global warming”-MR
I recommend that everyone watch this documentary. There were some very stylistic aspects to this film, and this provides a reality check to the status of our environment and how the government really runs.
And man, what a film. I connected with this documentary so much, and it was very powerful and persuasive, while being authentic at the same time. Just wow.
Here's the basic synopsis of the documentary:
Michael Reynolds started designing earthships so they could enhance the quality of life, but since our environment is quickly dissipating, he now designs them with our future survival in mind. After building a few earthships, he went on to build the first earthship community in Taos county, New Mexico, called Reach community. These houses, however, were very experimental. Reynolds and his building crew pointed this out to their earthship clients, but many of the clients sued Reynolds because of things that went wrong in their houses. Since Reach was not a subdivision and the houses were built so radically (meaning they didn't follow the state standards), Reach community was eventually shut down and Reynolds' state architect license was taken away.
It took Reynolds 7 years to make Reach a subdivision, and he had to spend tens of thousands of dollars to do so. **Warning: Subjective opinion**. I personally the building standards in New Mexico and the United States are a load of crap. I know it's blunt, but how are we possibly going to move forward and create a world for our future great grandchildren if we get sued every time we try to build outside the box?? Reynolds pointed this same thing out during the movie, and I was getting really angry at the lawmakers and the "rule book" of housing. Just ridiculous.
ANY way..so Reach community was opened back up, and Reynolds realized that in order to fight the system, he had to become a part of the system. He went on to create a bill allowing certain areas to be designated for sustainable housing testing sites. After a lot of work, the bill wasn't passed due to filibustering during the legislative session.
In April 2005, Reynolds and his crew received an SOS call from the tsunami hit Andaman islands. Reynolds and his crew went on to build and earthship there to help the remaining islanders. As Reynolds pointed out, they were all open to it because a disaster hit, so any solution sounded plausible. This eventually contributed to Reynolds' attempt to pass his bill a second time in the winter of 2006, though it still failed.
Eventually, in March 2007, the bill passed and he was able to legally build experimental earthships.
Also, after learning of his work in the Andaman islands, the Architect Board in Taos, New Mexico offered his state architect's license back.
What a story. Reynolds presented a lot of valid, big picture points about our life here on earth and how our government runs. He is very opinionated and likes to swear a lot...but very persuasive and not afraid to look at the big environmental problems, unlike most of the government(s).
Here are some of my favorite points made in the movie:
-Reynolds compares current human way of living as a bunch of buffalo running towards cliff with 1,000 foot drop-off, and he’s in it.
-Take every aspect of own lives and put it into your own hands. Don’t need to go to store to get what you need.
-”I am free”--The government tests cars, tests airplanes, tests BOMBS for pete’s sake in the interest of national security. So why can’t we have a few hundred acres for test sites to test sustainable living? Something that will, in fact, BENEFIT everyone.
--”We have decades left on this planet, and American politics is a f***ing dinosaur that’s not going to make it”-MR
-”Almost like disaster has to happen in order to make the rest of the world start comparing”-MR
-”We got a lot of people who can’t see beyond the rule book, and beyond the rule book is global warming”-MR
I recommend that everyone watch this documentary. There were some very stylistic aspects to this film, and this provides a reality check to the status of our environment and how the government really runs.
Friday, May 8, 2015
New Direction
So this may come as a bit of a shock since I took a bit of an unintentional hiatus from blogging..but I am thinking about taking my project in a new direction,
I have been resistant to drawing, and to be quite frank, drawing precise blueprints is really not my thing. Drawing precisely and focusing on every single detail has never been my thing. Also, at this point, I would really just be happy to live in any earthship. It might even make more sense so I don't have to spend a ton of time and energy building my design later if I wanted to.
Yesterday, Ms. Lord suggested to me and another girl that we could take our projects a new direction if we wanted to. If we were unhappy with the way things are going. I thought originally that I should just stick to what I'm doing. But then, I started to wonder.
I JUST, like, one period ago, had a meeting with Ms. Zaryski to talk about possible directions I could take and what other hands on work I can do that's in relation to earthships. And Ms. Z suggested the idea that I could build a garden at my house, then eat only the food that I grow from my garden for one week. Because, in an earthship, there's a green house in front of the large glass windows where you could grow food, and learning how to garden/properly grow my own food would be a good "introduction" to living the life I could in an earthship down the road.
Also, I mentioned in my planning post yesterday that I wanted to reach out in the community more and seek out stories of how people live sustainably. Once I interview enough people, I could make a scrap book of their stories! This way, I can have a (parishable) product by the end. Also scrapbooking is a lot of fun :) And, this would still include the creativity aspect of my project, just a different outlet.
I still have to talk to Ms. Lord about all of this to make sure it's okay and get some more advice about how to go about this change, but I am once again excited for the possibilities!
The goal for this weekend is to finish watching and taking notes on Garbage Warrior. I know this was something I was supposed to accomplish a couple weeks ago...so I will post an entry about it on Sunday night/Monday morning (I have a regatta from Friday afrernoon-Sunday evening and might not be able to access blogger).
I have been resistant to drawing, and to be quite frank, drawing precise blueprints is really not my thing. Drawing precisely and focusing on every single detail has never been my thing. Also, at this point, I would really just be happy to live in any earthship. It might even make more sense so I don't have to spend a ton of time and energy building my design later if I wanted to.
Yesterday, Ms. Lord suggested to me and another girl that we could take our projects a new direction if we wanted to. If we were unhappy with the way things are going. I thought originally that I should just stick to what I'm doing. But then, I started to wonder.
I JUST, like, one period ago, had a meeting with Ms. Zaryski to talk about possible directions I could take and what other hands on work I can do that's in relation to earthships. And Ms. Z suggested the idea that I could build a garden at my house, then eat only the food that I grow from my garden for one week. Because, in an earthship, there's a green house in front of the large glass windows where you could grow food, and learning how to garden/properly grow my own food would be a good "introduction" to living the life I could in an earthship down the road.
Also, I mentioned in my planning post yesterday that I wanted to reach out in the community more and seek out stories of how people live sustainably. Once I interview enough people, I could make a scrap book of their stories! This way, I can have a (parishable) product by the end. Also scrapbooking is a lot of fun :) And, this would still include the creativity aspect of my project, just a different outlet.
I still have to talk to Ms. Lord about all of this to make sure it's okay and get some more advice about how to go about this change, but I am once again excited for the possibilities!
The goal for this weekend is to finish watching and taking notes on Garbage Warrior. I know this was something I was supposed to accomplish a couple weeks ago...so I will post an entry about it on Sunday night/Monday morning (I have a regatta from Friday afrernoon-Sunday evening and might not be able to access blogger).
Thursday, May 7, 2015
Get Out of the Rut!
I went to the Thursday WISE Red-Flag class today because I missed Monday for a Psych AP Test. For you psychology-ers out there, I think I had an internal locus of control and used chunking, mnemonics, and rehearsing enough to get a good grade on it! Here is some mid-week planning to help myself "get out of the rut" that is the 4th quarter of senior year.
7 things I want to accomplish in the next week (by next Thursday)
-figure out why so resistant to drawing
-rethink project product(s)
-finally post reflection for garbage warrior
-make list of all resources in ithaca that relate to project/sustainability in ithaca
-use two of them in some form
-contact person who built green house on Troy road.
-get 33 journal entries by Monday
3 things to talk to mentor about:
-project final product(s)
-becoming a woman of my word. Not that now, would like to earn that integrity
-ever have "too" many resources to choose from and end up not using any at all?
7 things I need/want to know more about
-always more design tips
-setting up proper work space
-want to know about individual efforts for sustainability in Ithaca
-What constitues a good design portfolio
-Pros and Cons of using handprint blueprints or electronic 3d designs
-Ways of interesting documentation (other than documentaries)
-How other WISE kids with similar WISE projects directed their projects over time
Saturday, May 2, 2015
Very In-Depth Mentor Meeting
Long, spontaneous, life chats are the best, aren't they? At least that's what all the upcoming college freshman are saying when they're looking for a room mate..and I TOTALLY agree with them.
Ms. Z and I had a really thorough hour-long discussion on Friday having to do with motivation.
Just picture it--you're a senior in high school. You've worked pretty hard for all your four years of high school and would really just like to have a relaxing spring for once. This year, you decided to take it a little easy (easy meaning not having every period filled up with a class) and are getting de-energized with all these extracurriculars and just senioritis in general. How do you find the motivation to keep going with a project as long and big as this one??
That is what I've been struggling with. A lot. And that's what I talked to Ms. Z about on Friday.
There are a couple of reasons why this might be the case.
Here are my theories:
1. The masochist defense.
"What the heck is this??" you might ask (be prepared not to be led straight to the point...).
In this program called Hidden Treasure that my mom helps teach (read more about it here: ( http://www.lightonthehill.org/hidden-treasure/introduction/ ), the teachers talk about five main defenses of which each person might have. Some may have a bit of all of them, some may have two very strong ones, it's varied.
-The Oral Defense stems from not having enough of your needs met as a child, so as an adult, you end up seeking something to fill an empty void inside of you (and as the name suggest, you might be very talkative about it).
-The Rigid Defense is basically what it sounds like. You are generally unflexible when it comes to schedule changes and spontaneous events. Things need to be the way they were planned, or else it causes some measure of anxiety within you.
-The psychopathic defense is when you want to be in the control of your environment, as well as the people/thoughts of those people around you. This is a very common defense.
-The schizoid defense describes someone who tends to zone out and consume themselves in their own internal world when conflict arises. They don't want to deal with it-so they avoid it.
-And lastly, the masochist defense usually stems from having very controlling parents as a child, so you are prone to say "no" to authority and those types of demands. However, this also means that you say "no" to things that would benefit you, setting yourself up to fail.
I don't have very controlling parents, but I want to say "no" to work, which this project has become more of than pleasure.
So that's one reason.
Another is a deep-seeded questions I've been pondering since my junior year. Why do we have to work? Why do we have to do all of this work? For college? To succeed? Why is success so important anyway? Isn't better to just be happy, relaxed, have a well-balanced life?
Because of these reasons, Ms. Z and I decided that I need some external motivators to help me get up and start my work. To do this, I have created a Pintrist account. If you know how pintrist works (which I still don't for the most part...), you follow certain boards that draw your interest, say, braid styles for example. Then, pictures pop up on your newsfeed and you can pin them to your own board, or like them, or whatever you wanna do.
I am following several earthship design boards and I get a lot of cool pictures of the insides and outsides of custom earthships, which are beautiful to look at.
This, I believe, will get me up and on the road to doing more WISE work.
We'll see if this works!!
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